*Zoloft Files Edition* Hot 16…Or More…ANALYZE THAT

In this joint, I play Doctor to myself and pull apart all of the factors that may be possible contributors to what would make such an otherwise happy-go-lucky young man turn into this self – pitying  somber rapper who needed to make a trilogy of depressing songs to make you the company to his misery. All this while reminding me that Iam the answer to all of my problems. Deep stuff huh? Maybe I should have stayed in school and put that psych major to work huh?

Here’s that verse…

“Well,

to conclude…

My appropriate diagnosis I have come to…

Your mind’s engulfed with, time and goals you’re trying run to…

And I hope you’re not biting off more than you might chew,

so why focus on bitin’ off T.I. and that group?

When your diet’s all a quiet dose of triumph subdued?

For your mind it’s food,

and your supply’s huge.

Your time alone provides a hole that’s dire to you,

your eyes are on a  prize you know’s so far out of view.

But here’s what’s interesting:

You’re close to it…

It’s slightly underneath your nose – you’re unnoticed – and you know it – so it’s daunted your mood,

and it’s so sickening,

you suppose quitting is something to do

-well…

You have to ask yourself: what’s your options?

You told me on the phone before you got in…

that you actually, been considering – going,

back to college…

Even though you hated it in undergrad at Howard.

But now you’re playing with the thought of being a psychologists – like me,

going all the way to get your doctorate!

But would that entail stoppin,

with the music?

And is stopping a thing that you could truly go through with?

Or could you do them simultaneously?

It might take a wee bit more effort -but you get why I’m saying these things, right?

…These are questions you must ask inside…

to make sure you’re not caught up in frustration indeed.

Like when you say to me you wanna quit life,

is that momentary?

Or have there been times before that?

I can’t ignore that,

but I would ask what would bring on that…

feeling so resolute, and absolute

-let’s go back when you said you had all the chics and lost them,

and make sure you’re not so used to this performance – this ladies man persona,

but when you’re really all a -lone…

It’s difficult – it’s awkward.

And with no one to talk ta, it probably on this,

conclusive thought of the end – but it depends – you started writing these songs all cause,

the things that we just talked on – so then…

It has a function – it’s cathartic,

and you shouldn’t feel bad about it, no matter all the volumes…

If you need to write a hundred songs it’s alright,

it’s self-healing,

really it is keeping you alive.

Cause your drive, is exceptional…

But what underlies, is you desire to feel you’re accepted too.

You have a mild obsession with wanting to feel special…

to be praised and,

see the best of you.

In other words you wanna

but not in a conventional way,

you wanna be up on a pedestal.

You’re afraid to be common,

which is common…

listen, you are not crazy – I promise!

But the odd part is:

talking to me here,

Is kinda like talking to the mirror…

Which defines your mental health…

especially if you answer right back,

so you have just diagnosed yourself!

So Analyze That…”

Hope you learned something…

Click the picture of the mixtape cover to download it.

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