*Zoloft Files Edition* Hot 16…Or More…ANALYZE THAT

In this joint, I play Doctor to myself and pull apart all of the factors that may be possible contributors to what would make such an otherwise happy-go-lucky young man turn into this self – pitying  somber rapper who needed to make a trilogy of depressing songs to make you the company to his misery. All this while reminding me that Iam the answer to all of my problems. Deep stuff huh? Maybe I should have stayed in school and put that psych major to work huh?

Here’s that verse…

“Well,

to conclude…

My appropriate diagnosis I have come to…

Your mind’s engulfed with, time and goals you’re trying run to…

And I hope you’re not biting off more than you might chew,

so why focus on bitin’ off T.I. and that group?

When your diet’s all a quiet dose of triumph subdued?

For your mind it’s food,

and your supply’s huge.

Your time alone provides a hole that’s dire to you,

your eyes are on a  prize you know’s so far out of view.

But here’s what’s interesting:

You’re close to it…

It’s slightly underneath your nose – you’re unnoticed – and you know it – so it’s daunted your mood,

and it’s so sickening,

you suppose quitting is something to do

-well…

You have to ask yourself: what’s your options?

You told me on the phone before you got in…

that you actually, been considering – going,

back to college…

Even though you hated it in undergrad at Howard.

But now you’re playing with the thought of being a psychologists – like me,

going all the way to get your doctorate!

But would that entail stoppin,

with the music?

And is stopping a thing that you could truly go through with?

Or could you do them simultaneously?

It might take a wee bit more effort -but you get why I’m saying these things, right?

…These are questions you must ask inside…

to make sure you’re not caught up in frustration indeed.

Like when you say to me you wanna quit life,

is that momentary?

Or have there been times before that?

I can’t ignore that,

but I would ask what would bring on that…

feeling so resolute, and absolute

-let’s go back when you said you had all the chics and lost them,

and make sure you’re not so used to this performance – this ladies man persona,

but when you’re really all a -lone…

It’s difficult – it’s awkward.

And with no one to talk ta, it probably on this,

conclusive thought of the end – but it depends – you started writing these songs all cause,

the things that we just talked on – so then…

It has a function – it’s cathartic,

and you shouldn’t feel bad about it, no matter all the volumes…

If you need to write a hundred songs it’s alright,

it’s self-healing,

really it is keeping you alive.

Cause your drive, is exceptional…

But what underlies, is you desire to feel you’re accepted too.

You have a mild obsession with wanting to feel special…

to be praised and,

see the best of you.

In other words you wanna

but not in a conventional way,

you wanna be up on a pedestal.

You’re afraid to be common,

which is common…

listen, you are not crazy – I promise!

But the odd part is:

talking to me here,

Is kinda like talking to the mirror…

Which defines your mental health…

especially if you answer right back,

so you have just diagnosed yourself!

So Analyze That…”

Hope you learned something…

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*Zoloft Files Edition* Hot 16…Or More…LOVER OF LOVE

Day 3 ya’ll,

and how fitting that the boy Brandon Carter decides to use his run-by as a platform to try to play me on the Love-life tip and the supposed motivation behind this very project.

It goes right in line with the song that we’ll be getting into the lyrics of today.

This is one of my favorite rhymes to read written. I think it highlights the seriousness of what I’m saying where it may get lost due to my playful delivery on the track.

This is actually the sister song to track 7 on this same volume.

They go into my approach towards Love and what I invest into it.

This stands as a favorite not only because it’s therapuetic, but I think it’s half self-deprecating, Part accepting, and part not-give-a-fuck tone gives a different spin on the typical rapper introspection.

Besides that,

It’s pretty Self -explanatory.

Whereas Andre spoke on the Love Hater or Hater of Love,

This is my life as the opposite…

“Stupid Muthafuckas like me!

Fall in Love with the thought of Love,

better warn your daughters – hide their student IDs.

Cause more than likely…

I probably Court ’em – only to get Caught up in like, 4 months – watch me call ’em Wifey.

Yeah it’s sorta my thing,

Cause when it come to borderline divorces: I’m King!

And all the time I walk the line and cross it slightly,

Start talking prematurely on some yours and mine things,

that should not be discussed…

And I get gassed up cause I’m awarded Highly, in the sport of Piping!

And it’s not me to trust – But I…

Don’t usually,

Truthfully,

I’ll be honest…I promise…

Cause it’s got me disgusted!

What’s this??!!

Some Pimp,

Look to me more like a square,

Hooked to these broads like a brassieres,

– I make me Hate me – I swear!

But is it true??

Am I really that pitiful?

This is me at my most analytical.

Let’s strip dude apart:

Big kid with big heart,

been with,

been apart,

This is-n’t a smart decision

-cause this in-ci-sion’s beginning an op-er-a-tion,

that can take a lifetime – and the doc…

Is Dr. Love

And she ain’t got no patience for me,

cause I complain too much, and she got other patients to see.

So patch me up – give me my clothes back,

close that hole that you started making…

clearly I have got that anxious disease.

I’m in Love with being in Love,

and even tho it ain’t really happen to me, E-nough…

I be chasing with speed.

So here’s my co-pay,

I gots to go – Hey!

There’s a future failure waiting for me.

Making believe,

making a tree,

one day to be…

K-I-S-S, I-N-G

-with the Love of my life,

Hopefully not just my Love for tonight,

It’s no wonder why I find myself time and time again in that cycle – Love Potion # 9,

til I find her – I’m the stupid muthafucka saying I Love. I Love. I Love…”

Hope you learned something.

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